Just Listen…
It’s funny how a weekend where not much happens to me personally can leave me emotionally drained. I’ve spent the better part of my weekend helping a friend work through issues. I like being that person that people come to when they need an ear, but it does leave me exhausted as I’m an empathetic person and tend to take on whatever emotions that my friends are feeling, it’s as if I want to carry the load with them.
In talking with this friend I realized something, that I’m in a place now where I don’t want to be alone, but I’m also scared of getting hurt. Yeah yeah I’ve said all this before. I am ready for someone to come into my life that totally sweeps me off my feet, hell those of that are single all dream about this. My friend said some things that I said anyone would kill to hear. Something along the lines of “You want me, you got me. I’m yours.” Who wouldn’t kill to hear that from someone they want. I want someone to want me as much as I want them. Only problem is, I haven’t found that person to want that much. I’m ready to feel something again for someone, but I’m not willing to settle and I’m not willing to force a situation just so I can get what I want.
It’s funny how in helping out other people I was able to also work through some of my own issues.
Also Wendy, get to Seattle we need a good weekend of girl stuff. PJ parties, margaritas and bad chick flicks. And to feed the gutter minds of my male readers, we’ll make sure the pj’s are bras and panties and that when we tickle fight with our pigtails in place, we’ll get so close that we end up making out and “experimenting” all while a video camera rolls and catches our every action. Now snap back to reality gutterminds.
May 27, 2008 at 1:10 am
Trish, you know it will really happen. Whoever wants to film, just don’t sell us out.
May 27, 2008 at 1:21 am
LMAO…you’re right and it will be AWESOME!!!!
May 27, 2008 at 6:53 am
Sometimes it works that way..my friends tend to come to talk to me when they have issues, and I tend to great at GIVING advice, not so great at following my own……..I agree with you tho…..to be wanted by another, well its been almost 6 years since someone I wasnt related to told me they loved me…..and I was in a relationship, living with someone, cooking their meals, never having a life because they didnt want to….. yeah……I feel ya there, problem is……ive got so used to being alone….I dont know if I would even know how to handle it if I got it…….as for the girls night……hehehehe, been there done that(well not the video taping.) mostly the good times with good friends, and telling everyone we were going home to have a pillow fight
July 22, 2008 at 6:52 pm
Baby baby baby….had I known you had a poets soul? We’d talk about more than just SEX. (Although the sex talk is always welcome!)
I LOVE your stuff. I have one of these bolggy things (more than one, actually) but I don’t share them, as a rule.
Wuth you, I will.
HOLD ME BABY